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"HOW I MET MY WIFE, DHAZZEL" (My husband's version of our love story)

                                        Mr. & Mrs. Silvaroli

I had spent years looking for a woman that was a good christian and not just one that would cheat or lie on me as always. I wanted someone with a golden heart that wanted a real marriage. I had come to to a site called CDFF (christian dating for free) after hearing it has a lot of people meeting on it. I had been to a few others sites before this and had no real relationships that worked. Around this time my fiance had left me due to personal issues she was having.

Before I came to CDFF I stopped worrying about my love life and let God handle it. A few weeks later I decided to shut down my account after not really meeting anyone. I felt urged (by God) to login and remove my account. But this wasn't what God was saying, he urged me for another reason. After I had logged in to remove my account I had a message in my box from Dhazzel. When I seen she was from the Philippines I realize that was far away. But I didn't worry because I knew it was in Gods hands. After some messages on CDFF between us I couldn't believe how amazing she was. I felt a connection to her I hadn't really ever felt with anyone else. I added her on my facebook account. We talked for a few days, then one day I un-friended her because I never give up on someone and wanted to make sure my ex-fiance was 100% sure she didn't want to be with me.

So I talked to my fiance one more time but she didn't care. So we stayed split. I re-added Dhazzel and apologized and explained I believe in not giving up so its why I had to talk to my ex-fiance one more time. I had felt bad I had un-friended her (Dhaz) and honestly thought she probably wouldn't want to talk to me again. But upon talking to her I could feel she was happy and excited I contacted her back. I honestly felt happy too. I think she understood why I un-friended her the first time and seen it as I truly believed in not giving up in a relationship. We continued to talk for days, then weeks. Every conversations was wonderful and it felt like we had known each forever. I knew her heart was made of gold.

From there things got better and better. We were in love for sure. One day I mentioned to her after talking about our happiness that I loved her. She mutually agreed with a big smiley in the chat. After not to long we felt we should become something more then girlfriend and boyfriend. We could tell we weren't into drama or games. We wanted a serious relationship. So after much praying and fasting I had felt God had said she was the one that would be my wife. I had a plan to fly there and at the airport get down on one knee and propose but it was out of my budget at the time.

So one day while we were talking I poured out my heart to her about how I could see her with me in the future. I proposed online and she accepted. I believe we both were teary at the time because we knew this was indeed out future. I tried recording a youtube video asking her mom for her hand in marriage and explained how much I loved her and the family. But at the time the video wasn't working for some reason so her mother mom didn't get to see it. But she (Dhaz) said it was okay and it was the thought that counts. 

As time went on we talked about different options with visas, moving and so on. No matter what we realized it would be lots of work, time and money involved. Being I was disabled I knew I didn't have alot of money to save. But again we left it in Gods hands. As we saved money we started to get an idea for when the wedding could be, how we would get there and so on. By yet another of God miracles and blessings I had saved up enough to travel there and marry her. What normally would take me like 6 years to save I ended up getting within a matter of only a few months.

I left the end of February for the Philippines with my mother. When I first seen her step out of the van she was in I was overcome with butterflies inside my body. I felt so happy. On the way to the hotel we had booked I put my arm around her and we held hands. I can't put into words how that felt. As each day went on we grew so very close. People tell how crazy in love we were and joked with us about it. After meeting the family and many days of doing different things we got married March 16th at her church and home.

When I had seen her coming down the aisle I could feel my eyes tearing up. She really did look like an angel. It was another moment that is to hard to describe. Despite all my best efforts not to cry I cracked during the vows and cried. I could see her trying to look at the floor because she was teary too. Which of course made me cry more. I'm a mushy teddy bear after all. It was a beautiful wedding and I loved every moment of it! After we rushed off to Borocay for a 2 week honeymoon and a place called the Orinda which I got a about 80% off the original price (thanks to God again).The honeymoon was beyond words. The bonds created were way to deep to describe. We both felt the bonds and instantly truly felt what God had designed a couple to feel when married.

After the honeymoon I did feel depressed. I knew the first hard part of this was coming close. Leaving. On the last night together before going to the airport we spent some more bonding time together and both broke into tears. Our emotions were strong and all over the place. Happy to be together, sad to leave, joy to know we would be together in the future. The next morning we went to the airport and yet again in a failed attempt to not cry... I cried as I went to say goodbye.

It was very hard. Once back home we both felt like someone had cut our hearts in half. But after a few weeks we began to feel happy because we knew it was only a matter of time before we would be back together. What God puts together no man can separate. We are currently working on a spousal visa to bring her here to America so we can start the new chapter in our life.

If you take away somethings from this then first let it be that God can do anything. Just pray, have faith and trust in Him! Make Him as the center of your marriage. Next take away that the stereotypes of a filipino-american relationship/marriage are wrong. A filipino women is loyal, loving, trusting, caring and never leaves your side. You will not find a more suited person to be your wife. Especially as a christian. There is not one moment that I have ever regretted marrying my wife. Dhazzel is the joy of my life. Shes my everything and with her we can take on anything. God has been good to us and we are beyond blessed! :) 

PRECIOUS IN GOD'S EYES

God said..."You are precious to me. I give you honor and I love you..."

 ~Isiah 43:4~

Doesn't always feel that way, huh?

Sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough for God. Feels like I don't deserve to have him love me this much. It's hard to accept his love sometimes because it is so unconditional and so free. Surely I have to 'do' something to be good enough to be forgiven.

But no...

"You can't make God accept you because of something you do. God accepts sinners only because they have faith in him."
~Romans 4:5~

It is free. It is unconditional. And you are precious whether you feel like it or not. You can feel like the ugliest person in the world and yet God calls you beautiful. He doesn't have any favorites:

"God treats everyone alike." (Romans 3:22).

Next time you think "Nobody loves me," just look at the person you are. Your unique personality was designed. Every little detailed line in your hand was designed. The hairs on your head are all numbered. You are absolutely covered with God's fingerprints. He made you. You really think he doesn't love you?

Think again.

"God loves you and has chosen you to be his own special people."
 (Colossians 3:12)

 I am God's Princess